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(POTD; christmas is such a blur. not my picture)

that time of year is right around the corner, students are finishing up finals, out of towners are buying tickets back home, parents are rearranging their work schedules to fit family time in and those who feel alone feel more alone than ever. what is it with this time of year and making people yearn for comfort, love and affection? most of us cannot complain that we are all alone during the holidays but you can never understand a persons situation until you are actually in it, you can be in a house with 5 other people and go enjoy christmas dinner with your immense family and yet still feel like there is no real connection that you feel with anybody. personally i feel as if every person in my life has that person they can connect with, their girlfriend, their bestfriend since they were in diapers or that one cousin that has been there with you since your very first heartache. i've never had that connection with anybody, sure i do have very close friends that i can tell anything to and will always be there but, it reaches a point where they can only understand so much. do we really have soulmates in our lives? that one person who can understand years of feeling just by hearing two or three words about the situation? i think most people have found their soulmates already, it might not be their husband or lover but having that person who can understand anything and everything you feel without any changes is a soulmate in my opinion. i dont think i have found that person yet, will it be a friend or someone i will share an intimate relationship with? i have yet to find that out. this is how i defined that feeling to a friend of mine, "you feel at peace but at the same time uneasy, like youre missing a crucial part of your life at that moment" hopefully one day i can feel complete, even for just a moment, then i can rest easy and have the satisfaction of knowing that for once, someone gets me, understands me and because of that, loves me.